I don't know

If you could have anything you want what would you want? Somebody asked me this. My mind was a blank. Heck, I want alot of stuff, but if I really had to pick something what would it be. I said "I don't know". I'm thinkin how could you not know what you want. I have been pondering this question some 24 hours now. (I'm sure I thought about it in my sleep, because I was very tired when I got up for church this morning.) So I asked my husband "the question", and he said "oh you mean besides a million dollars and world peace"? He said a vacation and fix the bathroom and kitchen. I decided to make a list.

Things I want

1) tamburas for my family, so they won't be borrowed and have all the baggage that comes with borrowing expensive items, and in some cases better sounding.
* I don't know why I'm saying why I want it. I'll try to control that.

2) More room in my house. (like a family room)

3) New furniture.

4) New clothes to put on a thinner body.

5) family vacation

6) I would like to be able to afford a social life ie: go out to dinner with friends, go to the movies, or go to a theatre to see live shows (I would like to be able to take my daughter to live shows)

*(not necessarily in that order)

Ok, so I know where this is going. I need to set a goal, and work toward some of this stuff. But here is what I see as my obstacle.

Things I need.
1) new hot water tank
2) a new bathtub and tile on the walls.
3) school fees and all the things that come with that.
4) I have to go to the periodontist and insurance does not cover that (maybe I could just have them pulled).
5) The cars need oil changes and one needs a wheel alignment before winter. (no license plates until February)

I'm sure that there is more, but I've made my point. There are so many things that I need that I try not to think about what I want. It depresses me. I guess I could use some ideas of things I could want. Maybe there is something that I stuffed down deep inside me so long ago that I can't remember that I ever wanted it. I know that sounds pathetic, and I don't mean it to be, it just is what it is. It could be the reason I don't know.