Bye Arlene and Thanks for the Job

Well today was my last day of work at the hospital. I enjoyed the clowning around, people giving me a hard time, all in fun today. They all brought in food and we had a really nice (and healthy) lunch. I will certainly miss a lot of people, I almost cried a couple of times, but I will go out for drinks with them, so I can still see some of them, I think they go monthly. Then I raced home to change because Arlene, the woman I am replacing is retiring and the office was taking her out for dinner.

I know a couple of blogs back...I decided that God didn't like me! and that I hated interviews etc., but I am in awe of the fact that the more I get to know the people in the office the more I believe that in spite of all my whining and crying, God gave me a great job with wonderful people. The more I am there the more I realize my job was truly heaven sent. I am really excited about it and I laugh everyday. Half of the office is old St. John people, which is incredible. I talked with a gal tonight that I just found out worked there occasionally and she said something that made alot of sense. She said as corny as it sounds, we had something so special at that old hospital that it bound us together like a family. We have the same values, we had fun, and we were raised by a bunch of women in white caps and nylons, and bright white shoes. We had respect for them. and when we run into each other its like we never missed a beat, we are right back in that old hospital, so Arlene, thanks for the job and enjoy your retirement.

A Rambling Thought Poem

I love my kids
I love my life
even though its filled with strife.

I like my job
lots of people to meet
the drug reps bring us things to eat.

my car is old
I love my spouse
but I could use a bigger house

at the end of the day
when a million thoughts are in my head
all I really want, is to be in my bed.

the end

Ok So I Took The Quiz

I bit....I took the color quiz, I gotta tell ya I am amazed at the results.

Your Existing Situation

Needs, and insists on having, a close and understanding relationship, or at least some
method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified.

Your Stress Sources

Unfulfilled expectations have led to uncertainly and an apprehensive watchfulness. Badly needs to feel secure and protected against further disappointment, being passed over, or losing standing and prestige. (I'm not so sure about the losing standing and prestige part) Doubtful
that things will be any better in the future, but inclined nevertheless to make exaggerated demands or reject compromise.

Your Restrained Characteristics

The situation is preventing her from establishing herself, but she feels she must make the best of things as they are.

Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief.
Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity (rreeaaalllly!!!!!!, well that can't be a bad thing)

Your Desired Objective

Longs for tenderness and for a sensitivity of feeling into which she can blend. Responsive to anything esthetic and tasteful.

Your Actual Problem (you mean there's just one?)

Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. (is this God giving this test, because nobody could be that accurate) She is trying to escape from this into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, protecting her from dissatisfaction and lack of appreciation. wow

Your Actual Problem #2 I don't know about you but I thought the first problem was enough for a lifetime.

Needs to achieve a stable and peaceful condition, enabling her to free herself of the worry that she may be prevented from achieving all the things she wants.

Ok, so here are my thoughts about this test. Damn, whoever this color quiz person is, is going to be my next therapist.

My New Job

I was at my new job for 1 day. If the rest of my days there are anything like this one day, I will be very happy. The drug reps brought us cookies, of which I tried not to eat them, but I lost and had 2. I could not eat only 1/2 a cookie, I know only one person who has that capability. (of course she might go back later and eat the other half and we just don't know it) He was a cheery kinda guy and said to me, "I hope to see more of you", well I said "You cannot see more of me.....this is all there is of me.....there is no more of me." He replied, surrounded by laughter...."you'll fit in here just fine". I discovered an interesting thing about drug reps. They all look like they just stepped out of a magazine. Impeccibly dressed, really nice diamonds on the girls fingers, perfect hair, and thin bodies, and they bring drugs and goodies and sometimes lunch.

Oh here is something fun about my job, and it shows what a small world this truly is. We have a really nice girl in our office named Jennifer. Well it just so happens that Jennifer is going to marry Ned, a serbian guy from St. Sava's. (the office manager told me only one Slava per office, but thats ok because Greg never picked one for us to celebrate). so we are looking through a magazine for scrubs (because thats what you do when all the patients leave, and you are going through the mail) and she said there is a scrub shop thats really cheap but its in Garfield Hts., I said oh my sister lives in Garfield and used to work for a scrub shop there, I wonder if thats the one, and my neice still works there. Naturally she inquired where in Garfield she lived and I said on Sunset and she casually said, Oh my friend Miki lives down there.....................................as in my niece Miki?
Its a small world afterall! and then I just happened to have a picture of Morgan on my cell phone. So....Miki and Jennifer are friends. Which reminds me I have to call and tell her.

Well I have to go get dressed for work now. The hospital job, not the office job. I don't start there full time until May 2. Until then i train on my days off.

HEY! I am starting to wake up. Coffee is good.

I'm so sleepy

I meant to write last night, but I got home from work around 4 and I was home alone. So I had a snack and seperated the mail. I talked to Joanne and Greg on the phone and took a nap. A nap that I just woke up from about 1/2 hour ago.(Its 5:30am) I slept 11 hours and could go back to bed. But heres the thing....you know the thing? There is always a thing, its never just out there, there is always a thing with it. ok here is the thing, so far I feel the same as if I only got 5 hours of sleep. Sleep 11 feel like you got 5. You know, I don't have to feel perfect and I can deal with a little pain here and there, but I do need to be awake to live my life.....I have a physical May 1st.